Saturday, July 01, 2006

In Memoriam...Five long years

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I wish this happiness had remained with my mother and with us for ever....It has been 5years now....In the early morning hours of 1st July 01, Our 'Kittooch',my father passed away...Death stole him from us quite unexpectedly...a fatal cardiac arrest...which we always wish we could revert....

Our Kittooch was more a friend to us than a father...For the world he was a generous soul who helped anybody who came to him...earned a lot of respect and awe both within and outside the family...A man with a lot of values which I have always wished I could emulate...Life has passed on...but there hasnt been many days for my mother nor for my brother nor for me without at least a passing thought of that loving soul,who stood tall in our life...as the strongest succour...

Feel sad that I cd be a part of all these rituals back home only in spirit...

18 comments:

sudhav said...

No words to console shynee,but one thing, dad will always bless you all where ever he is..

Inji Pennu said...

Oh Shynee...I dont know what to say...Wish I could just squeeze your palm or give you a hug..!

Sumitha said...

Shynee...I am very sorry,I can say nothing to console you.

archana said...

Shynee,
Can't really say anything, i lost my father two and a half years ago, on the early hours of Jan 1. We never knew that it was coming,a silent heart attack. Life has never been the same. Hugs
Archana

Ashwini said...

I am so sorry about your loss. Our loved ones are always with us guiding and showing their love in unexpected ways.

indianadoc said...

I was feeling very uneasy as July 1st was approaching...Today I just let my self vent out...did not realise that I had written so much...It is still a clenching pain deep within...but an after thought...I deleted most of the things I had written...for it was painful reliving all those memories...
>Sudha...thanx for those caring words
>LG,I wish I could...thanx dear...u touched....
>Sumi...it is only when we lose, we know the worth of what we have lost...We all shd be grateful to God that we have been blessed with great parents....
>Archana...I know that it should have been the worst new year for you...and i know the pain the memories can bring...What more to say dear...Hugs....
>Ashwini,thanx for those sweet thoughts...

Puspha said...

I felt tears in my heart reading ur post. I understand ur feelings as we sail in the same boat. He will always b with u & bless u forever. Take care.

RP said...

Shynee, I know no words can console you. I did read all of your post before you deleted, but couldn;t leave a comment then. Hugs

Priya Bhaskaran said...

Hi Shynee, I read your blog often, didn't comment so far..... I am really sorry for your loss...His blessing will be there for you always:) Takecare and be strong..

Kalyn said...

What a lovely tribute to your father.

KrishnaArjuna said...

Shynee, whole description was very touching..I am very sorry for your loss.

indianadoc said...

>thanx Pushpa,RP,Kalyn,Priya and KA for all those sweet expressions of care...It was a tribute from my heart to my dad who made us what we are today...and I just wanted all of us to love our parents all the more and hug them close... when we are privileged to have them with us...I used to feel very sad when I see several old age homes here in UK where the old are left to the care of paid supervisors...may be because as an Indian I am still not much used to that system...of paid care...

Raji said...

Dear Shynee,
I'm in tears reading your post and at a loss of words to console you.
Take care,
Raji

sherin said...

Sorry would be a cliche for it,Many Hugs & take care.

Ann said...

dear,

this morning ,I had the same feelings and some how I just came to these words ,our thoughts and feelings are the same...My Father passed away last july..and I know how it hurts..but we are helpless..May their soul rest in peace..take care

Annapoorna said...

Dear Shyni,
I read your post on july 1st itself.But I couldnt bring myself to post a reply as I was in tears.I lost my father three yrs ago,but even now I am not able to accept that fact. I keep thinking about him each and every day.I have never been able to think about him without tears.Still wondering where he is?,is he able to see me? so on......Same as u I couldnt be near my father during his last moments.He passed away just 15mts before I could see him.Later i heard from others that he was telling our relatives and medical staff that" my mol is on her to way to see me".But I couldnt make it on time.Those thoughts still remains as a raw wound in my heart.
I still believe that he is there somewhere watching me, listening to my prayers.......

indianadoc said...

>thanx Raji and Sherin for those fine gestures...
>Annapoorna,I can feel u'r pain...It always hurt me deep within that I cd nt be near my father when he was breathing his last...and that too I was his pet always...Even now when I approach the junction to my house, a strange fear grips me...a tremor runs thro' me...my father was taken away from us at the least expected hour...Missing him by 15 minutes...is tragic...But perhaps as my brother consoles me, you too are lucky not to have seen him in death throes...in pain...We remember only their happy smiling faces...and I always feel his presence whenever I need him...a butterfly comes n sits on my lap...Annapoorna...they are always there for us...Be brave...

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